Best Friends Aren't Always That.

Every new boyfriend and I become less important.

There are a million examples I could write here, but it really wouldn't matter. That's really the whole blog in one sentence. Aren't friends supposed to come first? Am I really that much of a hassel? Am I as stupid as she thinks I am? When we do talk in person, all I get are nasty looks, or remarks like 'ew... why are you wearing that' or 'why are you talking to them?'. it can't be that "best friends no matter what" relationship that I thought we had, because its only coming from one end. I feel im the only one maiking an effort. that's a terrible feeling, I must say, for those of you that haven't felt it. maybe I wouldn't hate the different guys shes always with if she'd actually invite me to hangout with them, but apparently im just too embarrasing.

Should I just be there for her when they break up? Pass the entire two months off like getting the cold shoulder for 8 weeks wasn't a big deal? I don't think so. But I know when I bring it up to her nothing will change, because with every new 'hottie', the cycle just starts back up again.

HELP.